Shadows in Bloom · Gibraltar

Mental health,
painted honestly.

by Natasha Cottrell

In a world that can feel confusing, strange and wonderful, art has become my way of making sense of it all.

Window Light by Natasha Cottrell

The artist

Shadows in Bloom Artist Biography

I began drawing and painting as a way to process the full spectrum of life experiences, the good, the bad, and everything in between.

Since being diagnosed with bipolar disorder, borderline personality disorder (BPD) and post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), my artwork has reflected the emotional extremes I experience, from depressive lows to manic highs.

“Healing isn't linear, and all we can do is our best.”

At first, revisiting some of my darker pieces was difficult, as they brought back painful memories. With time and self-compassion, I’ve learned to see these works not simply as reminders of suffering, but as honest snapshots of my journey. Both joyful and painful experiences have shaped who I am.

I’ve always felt deeply connected to nature, which continues to inspire my work. I’m particularly interested in the parallels between how nature changes and grows, and how we do the same through life’s challenges.

Mission

Why I make this work.

I want my work to be raw, open and honest, reflecting the realities of living with mental health conditions, normalising these experiences and helping reduce stigma.

i.

Honesty

My work explores the realities of living with mental illness, including the ordinary, unglamorous parts that often go unseen. Through my art, I give space to the experiences and emotions that can be difficult to put into words, including the things we’re taught to hide and the subjects people are afraid to discuss. I believe there’s power in being honest about these experiences and creating space for conversations that are real, raw and human.

ii.

Compassion

We all deserve kindness, patience and compassion, especially when life feels messy. Through my art, I hope to remind others that they’re not alone in what they feel, and that it’s okay not to be okay.

iii.

Growth

Like nature, we grow and change through different seasons of life. My art explores the ways our experiences shape us, reminding us that growth isn’t always straightforward, and that we’re constantly learning and evolving through life’s experiences.

The collection

Original digital artworks

Chapter One

Into the Light

Vibrant & earthy works celebrating healing, nature, and renewal.

Where Death Blooms

Where Death Blooms

“In the immense death of what is perceived as lost, also live all of your new beginnings. This is what the artist in you inherently knows.” ~ Alysia Quinn

Life After Loss

Life After Loss

Among the Wildflowers

Among the Wildflowers

“The bad days will come, like they often do, but perhaps you will not fret about their arrival quite like you used to. Maybe that’s the secret all along: it’s been so that a day is simply allowed to be both. Both glorious and awful, a mixture of sorts, with magical moments and terrible thoughts. I hope you learn to nurture them all, the good and the bad, the big and the small.” ~ Sian Wilmot

The Art of Noticing

The Art of Noticing

This piece explores the beauty of slowing down, choosing to see the magic in small moments and appreciating the beauty of simply being alive.

Survival

Survival

Created for Mental Health Week, this piece explores the duality of healing: finding the strength to keep going while carrying the weight of what we’ve endured. It’s a reminder that we can hold hope and hurt, gratitude and grief, all at once. It’s all valid.

Where Magic Finds Us

Where Magic Finds Us

“Align with nature. Magic happens.” ~ John Friend

Anchor

Anchor

Dogs can detect stress-related chemical changes in our bodies, sometimes before we show any outward signs. Frankie often senses when a PTSD episode is approaching, coming closer and staying by my side before I even recognise what is happening. This piece represents the quiet comfort, grounding and unconditional support my dog Frankie brings to my life, and the powerful role animals can play in helping us cope with mental health challenges.

Wilt

Wilt

Some antipsychotic medications can affect the body’s ability to regulate temperature, making hot weather particularly difficult for those taking them. For me, the heat can cause intense discomfort, weakness and even fainting, making it difficult to enjoy summer, socialise and exercise. Through vibrant colours and melting flowers, this piece captures the contrast between the beauty of summer and the physical reality of living with these challenges

To the Body That Carried Me

To the Body That Carried Me

This piece explores my journey towards understanding and forgiving my body after psychological abuse. For a long time, I blamed myself for my reactions, whether panic, dissociation or shutting down. I’m learning to recognise these as my body’s attempts to protect me when I didn’t feel safe, rather than signs of weakness. This piece is both a thank you to my body for protecting me and an apology for the times I misunderstood its attempts to keep me safe.

Stay Loudly

Stay Loudly

“Change will come, even if you're standing still. Butterflies will keep flapping their wings and causing hurricanes. So, make your choices and make them loud. Trust your gut. Trust energy. And if you ceased to exist? Oh, the universe would notice. The mess that would make. The hearts that would break. So just stay. Stay for bad choices. Stay for great ones. Stay. Cause a few hurricanes.” ~Sian Wilmot

Pastel Coast

Pastel Coast

“In our world, dear reader, sad and terrible things often happen, though I wish I could tell you otherwise. But strangely wonderful things also occur, and this is the truth that makes life worth living.” ~ John green

Beneath The Surface

Beneath the Surface

“Has anyone ever noticed how people only love the ocean when the sun is out? Once darkness settles, the breeze kicks in, and the sharks come out to play, no one wants to swim among its waves. I hope I have never made someone feel like that, as if they are only admirable in the light, as if their darkness isn’t worth exploring. Because it’s when the sun sets that I sit on the shore and stare at the ocean in awe.” ~ Alondra P., I See All Your Light, I Love All Your Dark

Healing Isn't Linear

Healing Isn't Linear

A reflection on my ongoing mental health journey and the realization that struggling doesn’t mean going backwards. Healing is not about moving forward without setbacks, but learning to meet ourselves with patience and compassion along the way.

Bloom

Bloom

I used to hide my scars, but through self-acceptance, I’ve learned to see them as a symbol of my strength. I chose the daisy for this piece because they are often considered weeds and ripped out of the ground, much like scars can be seen as something ugly. This artwork represents my belief that, just like wildflowers, beauty, hope and self-acceptance can grow in the most unexpected places.

In the Absence of Okay

In the Absence of Okay

“I am not okay today. So, in the absence of okay, what else can I be? I can be gentle. I can be unashamed. I can turn my pain into connection. I can be a student of stillness. I can be awake to nature. I can sharpen my empathy against the stone of my discomfort. I am not okay, but I am many worthy things.” ~ Jarod K White

Between the Lines

Between the Lines

Inspired by an ordinary moment, this piece is a reminder that beauty can exist alongside the messiness of life. Even when our thoughts feel scattered and life feels untidy, there are still little moments of beauty worth noticing.

Trust

Trust

“Trust in your history of overcoming.” ~ Vex King - You’ve survived 100% of your worst days. Trust yourself to get through whatever comes next. You’ve overcome difficult things before, and you have every reason to believe in your ability to keep going.

Chemistry, Not Character

Chemistry, Not Character

Struggling with depression is not a weakness or a personal failing. Mental illness does not discriminate and can affect anyone. Through this piece, I wanted to challenge the stigma surrounding depression and remind anyone struggling with their mental health that there is nothing to be ashamed of.

Where the Light Pours In

Where the Light Pours In

Even in the midst of uncertainty and darkness, there is light to be found. Sometimes, we just have to keep looking.

Recovery

Recovery

“Something will grow from all you are going through, and it will be you.” ~ Steve Maraboli

A Quiet Kind of Hope

A Quiet Kind of Hope

“I hope one day your human body is not a jail cell. Instead, I hope it’s a sunny 2pm garden with daisies thriving because of self-love.” ~ Alexa Evangelista

Heavy days

Heavy Days

“I know you’re sad, so I won’t tell you to have a good day. Instead, I advise you to simply have a day. Stay alive, feed yourself well, wear comfortable clothes and don’t give up on yourself just yet, it will all get better. Until then, have a day.“

Chapter Two

Into the Shadows

Unfiltered works exploring depth, healing, and the dark.

“A collection for the heavy days, because real growth doesn't always happen in the light.”

Shadows In Bloom

Shadows in Bloom

“I have found so much beauty in the dark, just as I have found a lot of horror in the light.” ~ Azereth

Make The Voices Stop

Make the Voices Stop

Hallucinations are one of the symptoms of my mental health conditions and can involve seeing or hearing things that feel real but aren’t actually present. These experiences can be distressing and difficult to explain to others. Through this piece, I wanted to show what living with hallucinations can be like, bring attention to a less understood aspect of mental health, and challenge the stigma surrounding it.

Proof of light

Proof of Light

“Shadows prove the presence of light.”

Black butterflies

Black Butterflies

“There are spaces meant for you that will not require you to bend in order to belong safely.“ ~ Brianna Pastor

You Are Not Your Worst Moments

You Are Not Your Worst Moments

This piece explores letting go of shame and recognising how far I’ve come. For years, I struggled with my mental health while searching for the right treatment. With the right support, medication and therapy, I’ve been able to grow and understand myself better. Through my art, I hope to raise mental health awareness and remind others to show themselves compassion, even during their hardest moments.

Hallucinations

Hallucinations

“For some of us, Halloween is every day.” ~ Tim Burton. - One of the symptoms of my mental health conditions is hallucinations. These experiences can be frightening and feel incredibly real, blurring the line between what we see and what is actually there. Through this painting, I wanted to shed light on the less understood aspects of mental health and help challenge the stigma surrounding it.

Memento Mori, Memento Vivere

Memento Mori, Memento Vivere

Created for Suicide Awareness Month, this piece explores the fragility of life and the importance of suicide prevention. The skull represents the darker aspects of mental health struggles, while the butterflies symbolise hope and the possibility of brighter days. Together, they serve as a reminder of how precious life is and how vital awareness, compassion and timely support can be.

Yellow Mania

Yellow Mania

This was the first digital artwork I ever created, during a period of hospitalisation when I was struggling with my mental health. Drawing on my iPad became a much-needed escape and a way to express feelings I couldn’t put into words. Looking back at this piece is difficult, but it reminds me of how far I’ve come. It represents a painful chapter in my life, but also the beginning of a creative journey that continues to help me make sense of my experiences.

It's Not That Bad

It's Not That Bad

This piece explores how emotional and psychological abuse can make us question our own reality, especially when we’re already struggling with our mental health. The words reflect how we minimise our own pain to survive, until we begin to believe that what we’re experiencing isn’t bad enough to matter. It’s about recognising the harm, unlearning self-doubt and learning to trust ourselves again.

Transformation

Transformation

“ I know this transformation is painful, but you are not falling apart. You’re just falling into something different with a new capacity to be beautiful.” ~ William C. Hannan

Featured

Daughters of the Flame

Daughters of the Flame

“She didn’t fear the flames. She became the fire.” ~ R.Solo

Flowers And Fire

Flowers and Fire

“She’s flowers and fire.” ~ Butterflies Rising - A reflection of the softness and strength that can exist within the same person.

Bloom After Burning

Bloom After Burning

“She’s the type of flower that can still grow back after a forest fire.” ~ Adam Crews

Autumn Stillness

Autumn Stillness

This piece captures the peace I find in nature, particularly on a quiet autumn day. It’s about feeling at one with your surroundings and finding comfort, safety and calm in the natural world.

October Charm

October Charm

Where the Wild Witches Go

Where the Wild Witches Go

For the weird, the wild, and the wonderfully different.

Season of the witch

Season of the Witch

This is Halloween

This Is Halloween

I’ve always loved Halloween and all things spooky. There’s something about the darker atmosphere of autumn that just feels like home to me. As someone who uses art to explore my own experiences with mental health, I love that this season gives us space to embrace the unusual and the parts of ourselves we might otherwise feel the need to hide.

Purple Bloom

Purple Bloom

It rained in my head for months, but now look at all the flowers.

Moonlight Swim

Moonlight Swim

“I hope the sun never stops shining for you. And if it does, I hope the moon makes up for it.”

To Pieces, With Love

To Pieces, With Love

“This is my confession. As dark as I am, I will always find enough light to adore you to pieces, with all of my pieces.” ~ Johnny Nguyen

Behind the Brave

Behind the Brave

This piece explores the contrast between how others perceive us and how we feel internally. Being seen as brave doesn’t mean we aren’t afraid. Sometimes, courage is simply continuing to face life while carrying fears that others may never see.

FCK IT.

FCK IT.

Created during a difficult night when my medication left me drowsy, but my mind was racing with manic energy. I struggled to draw these flowers, only to wake up the next morning and barely recognise what I’d created. I wouldn’t always have shared work like this, but I think it’s important to show the less polished realities of living with mental illness. Not everything has to be perfect. Sometimes, the messiest moments tell the most honest stories.

Exhibition Spotlight

Shadows in Bloom

An unfiltered journey through the light and dark

Held in May, my first joint Mental Health Art Exhibition with Mark Montovio brought together two different artistic perspectives, exploring personal struggles, growth, and the beauty that can be found in the messiest parts of healing.

Sponsored by the Gibraltar Mental Welfare Society, the exhibition showcased my collection of 34 pieces, offering an honest and unfiltered glimpse into my journey.

Featured interview with The Bulb Agency for the anti-stigma campaign, “Let’s Talk About”.

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Commissions

Pet Portraits

A portion of proceeds from every pet portrait sold directly supports the Animals in Need Foundation.

“Animals have always played a vital role in my mental health journey, offering unconditional love, grounding support, and a reason to keep going on the hardest days.”

Giving Back Through Art

Volunteering and fostering with the Animals in Need Foundation, a nonprofit dedicated to rescuing and rehoming abandoned dogs, has been a deeply meaningful part of my life. It’s also where I met Frankie, my own rescue dog, who has become an invaluable part of my mental health journey and helped save my life in more ways than one. To give back to the organisation that brought us together, a portion of the proceeds from every custom pet portrait sold is donated directly to the Animals in Need Foundation, helping support their ongoing rescue and rehoming efforts

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Commissions & collaborations

Originals, commissions & collaborations.

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